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Welcome to Carnival 00:44
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Silly Game 04:01
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I don’t like the way it’s going Every day’s exactly the same It’s not the life I choose without knowing How can I end this silly game? End this silly game, no one understands Just tell me to be glad, when I’m feeling sad There’s pleasure to be had. I’ve been down this road before I’ve seen all these signs before Thought it was all over and done How many more left to come? Almost bought a gun, no one understands Tell me to be glad, when I’m feeling sad There’s pleasure to be had, pleasure to be had, please to be… If I could only make up my mind, my mind If I could only decide, why? No one understands, just tell me to be glad When I’m feeling sad, there’s pleasure to be had
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July 03:33
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Cold rain in July Flags are going to fly Too many clouds in my eyes Old pain in my heart Tearing me apart Too many lies from the start Bring the sun & dry up all the rain Burn the clouds, ease the pain And through it all, this flag still remains Hot sun in July, fire’s burning high Too many sparks in my eyes I’m not going to cry I’ll just let it slide Too many tears must be dried Bring the sun & dry up all the rain Burn the clouds, ease the pain Through it all, this flag still remains Cold rain in July Flags are going to fly Too many clouds in my eyes Too many clouds in my eyes Too many clouds in my eyes
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And You Loathe 04:21
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Do you believe in fate? Do you believe in circumstance? I’m not able to integrate; I’m not ready to take that chance Everything happens for a reason Everything’s bound to take its toll Everything happens don’t you see son And you loathe, and you loathe Pushed aside and turned away Looked upon like worthless slaves You can’t break out, you can’t make waves We pay our dues and dig our graves Everything happens for a reason Everything’s bound to take its toll Everything happens don’t you see son And you loathe, and you loathe, and you loathe, and you loathe, And you loathe Everything happens for a reason Everything’s bound to take its toll Everything happens don’t you see son And you loathe, and you loathe. Do you believe in fate? Do you believe in circumstance? I’m not able to integrate; I’m not ready to take that chance Pushed aside and turned away, looked upon like worthless slaves Can’t break out, can’t make waves, pay our dues and dig our graves Everything happens for a reason, everything’s bound to take its toll Everything happens don’t you see son And you loathe, and you loathe, and you loathe
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Last Breath 04:52
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I remember suffering I remember pain And there’s nowhere to run? When you’re standing out in the rain, taking in all the blame I remember hurt Through many sleepless nights There is no real safe place When you turn out the lights Turn out your lights Is it any wonder That my life is such a mess It’s a spell I’m under But I’m hoping for the best I couldn’t tell anyone It seems like a lot of stress Gotta do what you do to survive If I could only get this off my chest And I could be like all the rest Sitting at the table There was never any real surprise When the old man stumbled in And pointed right between your eyes Pointed right between your eyes Is it any wonder That my life is such a mess It’s a spell I’m under But I’m hoping for the best Is it any wonder why my life is still a mess, it’s a cloud I’m under And I’m taking one last breath, one last breath Then a new problem comes along And you think you are immune It's right back to that same old place Where everything bothers you And the shame we all go through Is it any wonder that my life is such a mess What a spell that I’m under, but I’m hoping for the best Is there any wonder, why my life is still a mess
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I'll Be the One 03:07
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What do you have to say? I always listen It has to be this way What was I missing? I’ll be the one to shine a light, tonight It won’t take long to change what’s wrong And make it right Though time has come and gone The seasons changing My nights go on and on And your mind is waking I’ll be the one to shine a light, tonight I’ll take the darkness from your skies And make them bright Here I am again my friend Are you still talking? I’ll be here until the end While you’re sleep walking I’ll be the one to shine a light, tonight I’ll take the sadness from your eyes And give them sight I’ll be the one to shine a light, tonight It won’t take long to change what’s wrong And make it right
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Black Holes are Just like Magnets 03:50
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Well today I’m in a haze Like a rat trapped in a lab maze No sense of sight, smell or taste I just feel so out of place In this state, I’m walking ‘round See no shadows on this here ground All the streets they’re grey & brown It’s so lonely in this town, lonely in this town If I fell down on the sidewalk Wasn’t watching where I go Got beamed in the head with a big rock No one would care I know, no no Well tomorrow’s going to rain Just like every other worthless day Are my blues all on display? It just always seems that way Another stay out in these clouds Walking aimlessly through these here crowds All those voices are way too loud Not muted beneath this shroud If I fell off the top of some building While a bad wind began to blow Everyone would keep on moving As I lay flat on the road City workers would all avoid me Like I had some kind of cold If they could, they would delete me I’m not anyone you’d want to know, no no It has always been my case There’s just no way out of this rat race Maybe if I changed my face And moved to some other place, moved to some other place If I fell down in the forest Would I even make a sound? When what we see is right before us Everyone just goes around If I walked off the edge of this planet And fell far out to space Black holes are just like magnets No different from this place, from this place
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Broken Mirrors 03:37
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I’ve been living my life day to day Hoping for that one big break Twenty years of broken mirrors & dreams Twenty years of endless fears & pain But it all can’t be bad No it all can’t be bad I’ve been thinking that my days could be numbered I don’t want to spend my time in slumber Twenty years of spilling tears and wonder Twenty years of growing old just to go under But it all can’t be bad No it all can’t be bad Waiting for a train that never came Waiting for the day to go away I’ve been living my life in isolation Lack of love is pure cold frustration Twenty years of broken mirrors & dreams shattered Twenty years of endless fears & rain, did it matter? But it all can’t be bad No it all can’t be bad Waiting for a train that never came Waiting for the day, to go away
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Grace 03:54
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Why do you have to wear that phony face? Why can’t you learn to be Grace? And in the midnight hour you’re telling tales Reminding everyone how you failed Just fooling yourself, you’ll never understand All I can tell it’s not as you planned Grace, your mind is clouded about some things On memories of what used to be After a few drinks you’ll want some more Next thing that I know you’re on the floor Just fooling yourself, you’ll never understand All I can tell it’s out of my hands Sometimes I don’t know who I’m talking to Sometimes I wonder if it’s me or if it’s you Some nights I think of what you turn into And when I realize I don’t know what to do Why do you have to wear that phony face? Why can’t you learn to be Grace? And in the midnight hour you’re turning tail Reminding everyone how you failed Just fooling yourself, won’t you ever understand? Looking for help but it’s out of my hands Out of my hands
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Mouse on a Wheel 03:00
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Okay it’s your way, I tried and I failed & I can’t deal with dismay Falling, stalling, it’s been a long time & I still have a song to sing Oh, oh oh oh oh I can’t beat down, oh, I can’t beat round Oh, I must be found! Lost years, ill fear, stomach’s turning & there’s ringing in my ear Cold feet, losing streak, blacked out & I’m headed the wrong way down a one-way street Going nowhere like a mouse on a wheel, mouse on a wheel Oh, oh oh oh oh I can’t beat down; oh oh oh oh I can’t beat round Oh, oh I must be found!
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Flags & Guns 05:41
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Flags waving in the air, looks like the 4th of July Guns loading, full ammo, napalm fills the sky Soldiers on patrol with heavy artillery And now for a change, a change of scenery Down at the front a battle lingers on Just like in chess when a pawn takes a pawn Dueling infantry’s, combat in hand to hand Leaving the dead to rot in the sand Captain Boot sits in his tent He’s got no one to defend He thinks of better days All his men have gone their own ways Flags go down; the day comes to an end Where’s old Captain Boot, is he in the sand again? Asking some corporal, “what is his location?” Call in a strike I’m in a bad situation Tied up to this pole my hands begin to free I make a break, my only chance to flee Sentry shots all miss & now I’m on my way They say, “To Hell with him, tomorrow’s another day!” This is war just insane Captain Boot calls out my name Says “can we make a deal?” All you got to do is steal All of your Flags & Guns, then we’ll have them on the run The war will be over so we can all go home To what we had & to be all alone
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Remember Me (2014) 02:26
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Two stranger’s stand, on the road looking lost Take another glance, familiar face from the past Start to walk on, should have said hello Could be very long, before you know I remember you, how do you do? remember you Yes I do, remember you, do you too, remember me Remember me, remember me, Why is it we pass like ships in the night? Never understood, always afraid, of making some honest mistake But we’re not alone. I remember you, how do you do? Remember you Yes I do, remember you, do you too remember me Remember me, remember me

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The home recorded version, singing it myself. Written July 30, 1996

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released March 30, 2020

All songs, lyrics & music by Dennis Patrick McDonald

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The Soakes Lonesome Richmond Hill, Ontario

I am a survivor of childhood physical, emotional and sexual abuse.

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