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Oh My God 04:34
Life, isn’t it a tragedy, your next step could mean fatality Life, whatever happened to me? Someone save my sanity Oh my god, I’m falling apart, oh my god I’ve fallen too far Oh my god, I’ve driven the stake, through my heart Oh my god Guilty by majority, casted down into disparity Shunned and scorned, desperately, someone save my dignity Oh my god, I’m falling apart, Oh my god I’ve fallen too far Oh my god, I’ve driven the stake through my heart, Oh my god! Locked inside the penitentiary Where’s there no humanity It’s the only world I know Will you ever save my soul?
2.
Here I am alone in this room, Singing songs out of time & out of tune Daylight you know it’s a coming soon I lose track of the time as I play This same old song, the same old way Messed up the words I forgot what to say Try again tomorrow or some other day When it’s time to go to bed So many thoughts running through my head Ain’t no reason, or rhyme that I’ve said Would make a difference & earn me some bread Guess I’ll go & take a walk outside What’s with those people there they go driving by With they’re faces all covered, I just don’t know why Makes you wonder what’s going on inside Just can’t believe in these things that I see Everyone’s fallen for this lunacy Are they that detached from reality? Hmm Should I just go home & back to bed? Or try and finish this song in my head Who will ever hear these words that I’ve said? Look out my friends, there’s rough times ahead
3.
Hold on tight, I’m feeling as if I’m gonna slip It’s a bitter life, I seem to miss by my finger tips Days passing by, all I know is what I see No denying, this sad recluse I never meant to be Flickering fire, seeking the truth I knew before Walking on a wire, falling further, then I fell some more Hiding in shadows, flirting with the ghosts I left behind Lighting the candles, losing all the hope that once did shine My whole life was turned around Played for the fool, a rented clown Dragged through mud then out again Soaked in blood of the flesh I tend A troubled man is all I am Never will I ever give a damn If I could just somehow embrace my fears Then throw it all away like I did those years, did those years I’m holding on tight, feeling like I always did before For a better life, this time, but I’m falling for sure Much more frantic from putting it all on the line So problematic, living with this curse that is all mine
4.
Here they come, this morning sun All dressed in white clothes If somehow, you live to tell You’re disposed to a house of woes You can’t uninstall them, you cannot cull them A vast majority they control If you please them it only feeds them Then they’ll surely take your soul And everyone that you know Chorus Because there’s no crime they won’t commit They just do what they want to do When the Government’s all behind it And they’re coming after you and everything that you knew Dusk until dawn a war is on It’s a fate they all applaud Kill white devils, kill soul brother All in the name of their laws Now you see, how easily The ignorant are deceived If you’re naïve and still believe You’ll never, ever be free, never ever be free Because there’s no crime they won’t commit They just do what they want to do It’s the Government that’s all behind it And they’re coming after you and everything that you knew No freedoms left to choose, when life you once loved is through And payment is now past due
5.
So hard waking up today Even harder than yesterday A changing world so dark & gray So little reason for me to stay Don’t know how much more I can take With the same old stupid, foolish mistakes Vile moods fuel my soul with hate They’re always there when I’m awake Chorus Some might wonder if I feel fear Not so much now the end is near If I got down on my knees to pray I’d only fall into a waiting grave This tortured life was never saved When help came it came too late Within these walls so second rate If you were me would you escape? I see demise, as it appears Not to panic; no need for tears I was thankful, you seemed sincere Would you miss me if I disappear? Chorus Now I stand at an open gate It’s Death my friend, who lays in wait Takes away that rusted chain So, I’ll never feel this way again Chorus
6.
I thought I had the answer Now I don’t know what it is If I, looked a little closer Because no one ever did In my head, I see a picture But the face is not so clear And as I, grew much older Too much changed throughout the years Oh, when life gets dim And now I’m turning in I want to, start a new day I went looking for a place And all that, I remembered Is now gone without a trace If my heart, wasn’t bitter No amount of time could make me change And the children, all play outside When I’m inside with the rain Oh, when life gets dim And now I’m turning in I thought I had the answer But I don’t know what it is If I ever, looked a little closer Because no one ever did, no one ever did Oh, how life gets dim And now I’m just tuning in
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Won’t you open up your eyes? Don’t you know it’s hit or miss? Will you ever realize? That this is all there is, this is all there is This is all there is I know it’s breaking all apart I could count the times it took All the way into your heart Just take another look (Chorus) Take another look Take another look It’s not some open book Even if I tried, I’d be on the hook To take another look It’s time to turn a new page Could be the last thing we ever do You said it was all just a phase You had to go through, I always thought you knew That this is what I do Will you open up your mind? It could be the last time Fall down, see what you’ll find Just take another look Take another look Take another look It’s not some open book Even if I try, I’d be on the hook To take another look, take another look Even if I cry, it’s not to wonder why Because I’d be on the hook
8.
I had this friend He was a junky He was a user, never had no money He took me so literally He took me too seriously I had this friend He was a loner Didn’t open up until, he got much older He took me so literally He took me too seriously I got the morning paper I read the daily blues And when I saw the headlines I couldn’t believe it was true You were high upon a tower, Looking down on some school Armed with a high-powered rifle With a determined look to shoot And when it all was over Many lives were through What made it all more tragic It was someone that I knew I had this friend He was a killer He took his own life, so be it
9.
Not so long ago, the tyrants said This life of yours Is ours to end Take this poison please it’s all free Wipe faith aside, the door is open wide Like a thief in the night We’ve lost without a fight Only few can understand It was all done by plan Time to get wise At evil in disguise See through the lies Or else say goodbye Clenched fists engage Is turned to ugly rage Revenge will be sweet When they all hang from trees With our hearts full of spite We’ll execute day and night And with bloodshed on our hands They’re relieved of their command Relieved of their command Relieved of their command
10.
My, life’s a downer, it’s one bad thing after the other Everything I do, just seems to fail it’s what I’m so used to Try as I will I can’t succeed I feel like a fool Try as I may I’m so depraved I’ve lost my way Even my own friends tell me I’ve been off since they don’t know when Day after day it’s all the same, my whole world’s insane Try as I will I can’t succeed I feel like a fool Try as I may, I’m so depraved I’ve lost my way Try as I might, why should I fight? I’m just a tool Tried hard but fell, from all I can tell it hurts like hell My, life’s a downer, my, life’s a downer, my, life’s a downer Try as I will I can’t succeed I feel like a fool Try as I may I’m so depraved I’ve lost my way Try as I might, why should I mind? I’m just a tool Tried hard but fell, from all I can tell it hurts like hell
11.
Who says nice guys finish last, not me I think that it’s all in the past Who said what happened to courtesy not me I feel its part of our personality Chorus Where have all those good guys gone Did they fade away did they move on Are they out there ashamed to be strong? Waiting for another chance in the sun Some say people are so strange, not me I think it’s all just a game they play It’s just so common to betray, not me I’m not the one to cause you pain in any way Where have all those good guys gone Did they fade away, did they move on Are they out there ashamed to be strong? Waiting for another chance in the sun Who says nice guys finish last, not me I think that it’s all in the past Who said what happened to honesty, not me I know there’s hope for you & me (Chorus 1 more time)
12.
In the Robin Hood Hills of Arkansas Where three little boys were killed As they lay in a ditch near the tri pipe bridge Innocent blood was spilled I know it happened quite a while ago It’s almost been thirty years It shattered lives and made time stand still But my eyes still well with tears I can never, never forget you And now I know I never will I still cry I feel dead inside Why did you have to die? Michael, Christopher, & little Steve You’re not where you’re supposed to be You were denied your childhood You deserved to live Now you’re safe from harm up where you are In the arms of God I’m ashamed of humanity When guilt walks free right among us all I can never, never forget you Now I know I never will And I still cry I feel dead inside Why did you have to die? I will never, ever forget you Now I know I never will And I will cry, I will always remember I will always pray for you

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released September 30, 2022

All songs, lyrics & music by Dennis Patrick McDonald

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I am a survivor of childhood physical, emotional and sexual abuse.

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